Here comes my poem “What is Love?” in loving memory of my mother who left us too soon. It was a shock to me because I talked with her on the evening about the Christmas lights and the following morning she was gone… Today it’s four years ago since she moved to heaven. I miss you, mom…

I’m grateful for all the things she taught me. She was a kind, honest and generous person who liked to help when she could. The photos in this blog post are of our beloved homestead where my mother lived all her life. I’m very lucky that I was born in such a beautiful place. The land is incredibly beautiful during the winter nights when the stars and the moon light up the winter landscape and the snowflakes sparkle while the northern light is dancing in the velvet sky. It’s truly magical.

Therefore, I’m a lucky person because I have known my mother and I have been able to see all this beauty for most of my life. Now when I see all the Christmas lights, I will think of my mother and remember the old days.

What is love?

What is love
This little word, only four letters long
yet so powerful
You can’t touch it because it’s not a physical thing
yet you know it exists

But what is love
Is it love when you think of your dead mother
and you can hear inside you what she would have said if she could
Is it love if you do things that you know she would have loved

You never know what little thing will turn your feelings in motion
when someone close to you has died
These little things can be
a commercial
a picture
a memory
a fruit
a movie
a treadmill
Yes you never know which thing will make you blue
when someone you cared about is gone forever

Is it love or grief when your eyes get teary by these small things
Things that mean nothing to others but the world to you
Maybe it’s grief since you lost someone
Or is it love you’re feeling
since these little things make you feel so much

I try to believe that everything happens for a reason
but that’s difficult at times
Because I can’t understand why my mother had to die all of a sudden
It felt like my world turned upside down
I was left alone with all the feelings
Feelings that make you feel too much
Once in a while it feels like a storm is going on inside my heart

I thank God that he sent me an angel to help me get through this
An angel that my mother met briefly before she went to heaven
I believe that angels comes in different shapes
Like a cat purring in your lap
Or a friend who spends time with you
Or just a feeling of peace inside you

But what is love
I believe angels are love
So maybe love actually is a physical thing
Or is it just a feeling
Who knows
But I do know that angels are both visible and invisible
You never know where angels are
If someone will turn up next to you when you least expect it
Or if it just flies above your head right at this moment
to protect you from all the danger

Although love is a wonderful thing it also hurts
Soon it’s Holiday season and it will hurt when I see all the Christmas lights
because that was the last thing I talked with my mother about
I miss you mom